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Faith of an atheist

A salute to folks who march to a different nondrummer

By Ron Vanderwell

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I could never be an atheist. I couldn’t muster that much faith.

But I’ve got to respect people who are committed to that faith. It’s inspiring to watch someone stake everything on something they can’t prove. It’s pretty ballsy, actually.

Most atheists would never brag about it, of course—which I respect—but theirs really is a gutsy kind of faith. After all, how could anybody ever prove that God wasn’t there?

Throughout history, people have always bought into the idea that someone “bigger” was in charge. Granted, we could never quite agree on just who or what that bigger-than-us entity was (think of the Crusades, for instance). But whatever brand name people might choose, everyone agreed that there was someone or something. This works for me. I look up at the night stars at Emigrant Gap, and those galaxies sure don’t look like an accident. Seems like it’d be hard to be an atheist outdoors.

But that’s why I have to salute folks who march to such a different nondrummer. During recent centuries, some academics have concluded that those stars are really just accidents. Evolution, it’s called. The idea is that we’re all somehow mutants, morphed from the first seaweed glops that washed up on some beach. I’ve known a few mutants (hey, I watch cartoons!), and I have trouble seeing how mutants could accidentally produce something like the Red Hot Chili Peppers. To me, bass-guitar licks like Flea’s don’t just happen.

Maybe I’m too uptight about the whole science thing. But think about it: The best science of the day produced the flat Earth theory. Then, later, the better science of the day produced the round Earth theory. (Note: At press time, the Earth was still round.) That whole big-bang theory? Something that big, somebody must have heard something!

Granted, any academic discipline can have a bad century periodically. But I struggle with these leaps of faith. Rumor has it some guy in Ohio dumped 10,000 dominoes off his roof and they accidentally formed a perfect Mona Lisa—even got the smile just right. I don’t buy that, either.

I don’t want to sound judgmental. Most atheists are good people who are sincere about their beliefs. But I bristle when atheists get all fundamentalist on me. Maybe I’m not as smart as they are with all their fancy theories, but I still feel judged by their sympathy when I don’t “get it.”

What I would love would be an open dialogue about our different kinds of faith. Not an evangelistic shootout, just a chance to hear faith stories from some atheists who’ve been at it a while. How does it feel to be such a minority? How do you shore up your faith on the days when you suspect that maybe you were put here for a reason?

I don’t know. Maybe I’m missing something here. But whenever I look for a reason to have faith in atheism, all I find is … nothing.


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Posted 04/29/2010 1:39AM by PaulaJ
"The best science of the day produced the flat Earth theory. Then, later, the better science of the day produced the round Earth theory.” Well, there’s two problems here. Firstly, “the best science of the day” DIDN’T produce the flat Earth theory. As far back as we can recognise anything we can call “science”, it was known and accepted that the Earth is round. There was a lot of disagreement about how big it was,... MORE
Posted 04/29/2010 7:27AM by stann
You really need to learn what an atheist is. An atheist is anyone who doesn’t believe in a god or gods. Only some atheists say there is no god or gods and even then don’t claim an absolute knowledge of the whole universe, just that what are presented as gods have no evidence for them and are inherrently contradictory. Also, science would be helpful. NO scientists say that the universe is an accident. There are... MORE
Posted 04/29/2010 7:45AM by Mozza
A strange article really the whole premise of which confuses me. What’s all this talk of faith? The whole point of atheism or non theism is there is no faith required. You simply analyse the evidence available at any given time and connect the appropriate dots. “After all, how could anybody ever prove that God wasn’t there?” Again you seem to be missing the point a bit here, no proof is required as it is... MORE
Posted 04/29/2010 9:55AM by Anonymous
Where to start? My first reaction was to call Poe’s Law on this. Then I thought no, this is the type of argument you hear from your preacher that sounds good when it is preached to the choir but is less than impressive elsewhere. Then I googled Ron and found him to be (wait for it) the pastor of The Gathering Church www.gatheringchurch.org in Sacremento. Now you know to reread this listening for the slick... MORE
Posted 04/29/2010 11:06AM by bramble
Blurring the distinctions between theism and atheism by calling the latter a “faith” doesn’t sidestep the major critique of theism today, namely, that the established theistic belief systems (a.k.a., the various religious creeds) are founded on ancient texts that are believed to be either a) the inspired word of God or b) in possession of some occult knowledge that can’t be analyzed outside the particular discourse of the text itself. In other words, theism today... MORE
Posted 04/29/2010 12:45PM by Anonymous
I think the point of this blog is to show that everyone puts their faith in something. Generally, the two sides boil down to those who believe in a higher power, and those that do not. But those that don’t believe in a higher power are, in essence, putting their faith in themselves and whatever their minds can comprehend. As such, those fundamentalist views that people of faith are always being criticized over, are only... MORE
Posted 04/29/2010 1:50PM by koko22
Population fallacy. Cosmological argument. And then he called stars evolution. I had to stop there. the onus of proof is on the theists. Atheists merely say they do not believe in god - as there is no proof of its existence.
Posted 04/29/2010 3:27PM by Anonymous
It’s funny how atheists (presumably) attack people who believe in God rather than have a valid argument for why they believe there is no God. Is it because they don’t have any good arguments? Most likely. And the ones that have been tried have all been answered. I’ll steal a line from Thomas Jefferson, “We hold these truths to be self-evident, that all men are created equal, that they are endowed by their Creator with... MORE
Posted 04/30/2010 3:52AM by Anonymous
Greg, either you’re trolling bigtime, or very misinformed. “It’s funny how atheists (presumably) attack people who believe in God rather than have a valid argument for why they believe there is no God.” Why would you presume atheists do this? Most atheists I know love a good debate but rarely ‘attack’ anyone’s beliefs. Having an opposing viewpoint is not an attack. If you’ve ever encountered an atheist who is rude, don’t judge all atheists by... MORE
Posted 05/02/2010 11:34AM by Anonymous
Atheism:1.the position that there are no deities. 2.the rejection of belief in the existence of deities. Most Christian apologists use the first definition to describe atheists, while most atheists use the second definition to describe themselves. The first definition is as dogmatic and certain as the belief of theists and shifts the burden of proof to the atheist to prove a negative, which is impossible. The second definition puts the burden of proof where it... MORE
Posted 05/03/2010 12:51AM by DudelyLama
Vanderwell’s essay reads like a verbose reprise of the Christian graffiti on the recent atheist billboards. It is regrettable that a man who speaks for so many would speak in such bad spirits. It would be better if the local Christian leaders were interested in growing bonds between their flock and the rest of society rather than further disgust and resentment.
Posted 05/03/2010 5:33AM by dbutton
As as 20-year employee of the News & Review, I consider myself a staunch supporter of free speech and freedom of the press and celebrate the paper’s goal to present a wide range of viewpoints and voices. That said, it’s important to realize that not all voices are capable of forming a logical argument or presenting it in a fashion worthy of publication. In my opinion, the level of intellect behind this Reverend Vanderwell’s essay,... MORE
Posted 11/26/2010 7:25PM by Arr Arr
Mr. Vanderwell, do you believe in the divinity of Shiva? Of Allah? Of Zeus? Ah, I thought not. We agree, then; I don’t believe in them, either. Those “gods” aren’t real. And the religions which base themselves on those made-up deities are, to put it kindly, untrue. (Some people may find them useful; but they’re certainly not true). This much, I imagine we agree on: Hinduism, Islam and Greek Mythology are not true. So maybe... MORE


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